My life has been put on hold. I haven’t been to work in almost 3 weeks. I spend my days at my husband’s bedside, learning how to care for him, taking care of him, handling things with him. The evening hours are filled with phone calls from friends and loved ones. Late nights are for learning how to fill his shoes; doing the bills, taking out the trash and for finalizing my father’s estate. Somewhere in between all this the laundry, house cleaning, grocery shopping, appointment scheduling, vehicle maintenance, and mundane tasks must be completed.
I am putting one foot in front of the other, taking one step at a time and pushing on to the new “normal” life we’re going to have. Some people say “Lord, give me strength.” I say “Women are like teabags. You never know how strong they are until you put them in hot water!” It has become my mantra, the affirmation of my strength.
I've decided that if life is going to push hardships at me I am going to push back - twice as hard and 3 times longer! This may change my life but this will not defeat me!!!!